Dead Last

Amazing night at Crossfit, it was a hell of a WOD but again I did survive. Our WOD was 3 rounds for time of 50 wall balls followed by 800M run. Because we had running I wore an appropriate shirt that said Running Sucks- because that is the relationship I have with running. I think the only time I was ever good or able to run was either sprinting in high school and college or when I was in the Army.

 

Anyway, we got started and I was last out of the box for my run on the first round, I already knew this was going to be a challenge and it became a fight for my thoughts as well as my body. The run can be a little lonely-it's only 2 laps around our building but that is when the negative thoughts start running wild. Watching people sprint out the door and fly past me while running started to get very discouraging and frustrating.

 

As I was coming in from the run on my 2nd round I noticed that others were finishing their last round and I started to get upset. I am so used to doing things that I excel at and can compete in, this is new territory for me in being dead last. I was struggling with my last set of 50 WB and I noticed I had a group around me, they were yelling and cheering- for me! They counted down my last 15 for me in sets of 5- give me 5 then you can breathe. It sucked, but I go through it, and I think I did better on that set than any other that night.

 

The last 800M was the toughest, because when I started out the door I knew it was just me. I was alone on this road and I had to make my feet keep moving when all I wanted to do was give up. Had I been alone, or not with this group I would have given up long ago, maybe even after set 2. While I was running I was reminding myself that we have all come here from different walks of life. I don't know how long some of my fellow crossfitters had been there or what their journey has been. And they do not know my journey to this point right now. But I was there to make a change, and no matter how slow I had to go, even if I had to walk here and there I was going to finish. I have already done things I never thought I could or would do. I showed up that night and I would finish it. That was just in the first lap because when I ran around the side they all walked out to cheer me on to my 2nd lap. It made me hold my head up a little higher, breathe a little deeper and keep going. They had been done for a little while now so they were sticking around just for that?! Amazing.

 

That last lap took everything I had to keep going- just to put one foot in front of the other. But again as I rounded the corner on that lap I saw them come out, heard them cheer me on. I heard my coach say that I had to run all the way inside, which I did, and thought I would drop dead on the floor. But I finished. Almost 10 min after everyone else. But I finished what I started.

This is why I joined Crossfit, to be better than I am right now, to do things I didn't think I could and for a community of people that I can do this with.

 

I found that in my box, I like it here. I don't know everyone yet but I have a feeling we will all get to know each other soon enough. Clearly they will push me, I just have to keep showing up and try to be better than I was yesterday. My coaches are amazing and I hope some day I can be the person someone new can look up to as well. But we all have to start somewhere.

 

 

 

 

Crossfit is an amazing community of people. We are all going through the same suck, we are all at different levels of being able to work through it and our endurance to finish. Someone has to be last, we are all here to make sure you are not last alone, we are all cheering for you!

 I did I think 2 actual, true double unders today and that jump rope was a little whip I tell ya. When did this become so difficult? When I was 10 I could jump rope forever!

After 150 WB I did get a few punches to the face by my 14lb ball, teaches you to catch the damn thing!